Featured Character: Mama from Shrouds Over Eden

Mama is an important figure in the lives of some of the ladies in Helen Khan’s book, Shrouds Over Eden. We wanted to talk to Mama firsthand to learn more about her and the lives she impacts.

When we asked her to join us today, she graciously agreed to come and share with us why she is so passionately involved with broken-hearted women. So, without further ado, here is Mama.


Tell us a little about yourself. How old are you and where do you live?


What can I say about myself? You asked my age, well, I’m a grandmother, so old enough. I live in the suburbs just across the street from Baraka Colony. It’s a nice home, services us well, especially since we have so many people coming and going through our doors all the time. Sometimes, people like to stay overnight, especially if they haven’t slept for awhile. Many say it is very peaceful in our home and it helps them sleep better than even in their own homes.


Do you have any siblings? Do you have children?


I have four siblings, two brothers and two sisters, all younger than me. And we have 11 grandchildren.


Who is the most important person in your life? Why?


The most important person in my life is my husband. He is my best friend. I prefer to be with him than apart. You could say he is my hero. I have a lot of respect for him. My mother was my role model, but my husband is my hero.


How do you measure success? Is it money, career, husband, children, happiness? What is it?


For many people money or possessions define success. And although money is important, after all, we all have bills to pay, it isn’t what makes a person successful. Success for me is having well adjusted children who are happy being who they are and what they do. It is being happily married to the man in my life. Success is making people happy; using what God has blessed me with to bless others. Those are some of the things that define success to me.


If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?


Sometimes I am not humble enough or kind enough. I catch myself being proud or unkind and I don’t like that.


What is your philosophy of life?


You can call it philosophy or my motto for living, but it is to love God with all your heart and to love your neighbour as yourself. And my neighbour is very inclusive, it pretty much covers everyone regardless of who they are or believe.


What do you think women need most?


Love, we need to be loved for who we are. And we need to be hugged. I meet so many hurting ladies who have aching backs and shoulders. But if I put my arms around them and hug them, tension goes out of their bodies, they relax, and the aches and pains go away, at least for awhile. Then they need to be hugged again.


I understand, from reading Shrouds Over Eden, you spend a lot of time with women in your area. So, I’m going to assume you know why misogyny is so prominent in Pakistan. Can we blame religion or tradition for how women are treated in Pakistan?


Religion does play a factor, and perhaps erroneously so because much of what is done for religion is really tradition and no one knows why. For example, if you ask someone why women in Pakistan take the uncomfortable and backbreaking position of riding bikes aside, you may get the answer, “Well it’s Islamic.” The truth is that many women whether they are Muslim, Christian, Hindu, or Sikh ride side-saddle when they are the passenger. And this happens throughout Asia, not just Pakistan. If we look at the history of riding side-saddle, it became taboo to ride that way around the 14th century when Princess Anne of Bohemia rode off to marry King Richard II. Advisors told her she could not ride astride, she had to ride side-saddle as it was improper for her to do otherwise. Then along came Queen Victoria who entrenched the tradition. India, which included Pakistan, was a British colony. So, we can thank Queen Victoria and colonialism, not Islam, for the danger and discomfort women face when they ride aside (side-saddle). Often traditions are given religious sanction, but that is not necessarily their root.

The other thing we can look at is the dowry system. This is a Hindu tradition that carries over into Muslim and Christian traditions. Although the Bible doesn’t mention what should be given to the bride or the groom. In Islam there is what is called mahr where the groom gives, maybe, a monetary or land amount to his bride. The dowry system is another case where tradition prevails.


From Shrouds Over Eden, I understand that Sonu was a frequent visitor to you home. Can you share one or two things about her?


Sonu frequently visited our house. She, like many others around lived in a home where abuse took place. Sonu would often come over, just for cookies and lemonade and would sit on the veranda, quietly. She didn’t talk much as a child. She was a lovely child that needed lots of love and validation. Validation I think is the key world here. Many of the girls and women I meet need to be validated. They need to be told they are worthy of love and respect. Then she married and that marriage was full of violence. But God led her into a garden where she met Lamb. It was his unconditional love and treatment of women that she clung to and that is what helped her through difficult times.


Do you think the garden was real?


There are many who think it was fictional. But I think it was real. Why? Because of what she learned in the garden. Lamb lived upon the earth many years ago and the things that Sonu learned are part of history. Also, after her experiences in the garden, she had an inner strength that helped her live life despite her hard circumstances. You don’t do that based on fiction. It had to be real.


And my last question, is a fun question. What is your favourite colour?


I like creams, browns, and greens. I think that green, soft, muted greens are my favourite. And I look good in green. Most people here love bright colours, but I like softer colours.


Thank you, Mama, for taking time out of your day to be interviewed. Having that insight into the lives of broken-hearted women has helped me, and I am sure our audience, have a better understanding of what some women go through every day. For our readers who want to read Mama’s story, you can purchase Shrouds Over Eden in various outlets worldwide.

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Is Righteous Hatred an Oxymoron? by Helen Khan

“Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God! They speak against you with malicious intent; your enemies take your name in vain. Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord? And do I not loath those who rise up against you? I hate them with complete hatred; I count them my enemies. Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try mean and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” Psalm 139: 19-24

I have spent the last number of months moving through Psalm 139, sharing how precious we are to God; how he loves us and created us, a wonderous creation. I have shared the precious thoughts God holds for those he has made. Then, I come up against Psalm 139: 19-24. What happened here? We have moved from pure love to hate, or so it seems. Is this some sort of contradiction?

Protective Love

We have a Czechoslovakian Wolfdog. With us he is warm, friendly, funny, and just a loving dog. We have had him since a pup, and he thinks I am his mommy. We have a loving relationship. But his loyalty also means he is a very protective guard dog. In contrast, if anyone who is not a member of our household comes too close to his mommy, he is upset; ferociously upset. Maybe he even hates.

The first eighteen verses of the Psalm are a major love affair between God and his creation. By now the Psalmist has fallen helplessly in love with God who loves him and thinks about him intimately, all the time. Up to this point it has been just God and him. He now turns his eyes off God and onto the world around him. There he sees evil men who hate God. Therefore, furious indignation ignites David. He uses strong words to these godless evildoers as he stands up to defend the God who loves him.

Is it Okay to Hate?

And he hates what God hates. The intimate relationship between him and God has been intense. He has come to know God, personally. He knows God hates evil and so he too hates it, with righteous hatred.

We have become averse to the word hate. We perceive it is always bad to hate. But sometimes it is okay to hate, it is even the righteous thing to do. We are to hate evil, passionately hate it. When we see evil we ought to pray that God will help those under its evil clutches escape. When we see human trafficking, racism, murder of the innocent, misogyny, child slavery, oppression – the list goes on; it is okay to hate. It is called a righteous hatred. We hate the evil and stand against it and side with the victim and fallen. This hatred is far different than when we lash out at the closest person to us because we had a bad day at the office. It is different that the indication we feel when we are slighted or suffer a minor offence. That is plain old hatred and maybe we need to learn tolerance and forgiveness.

So self-hate towards ourselves, hate towards others for unrighteous reasons is not hate that is acceptable, either by God or in society. It is unrighteous hate. We need to develop a hatred that parallels God’s hatred.

When we think of God’s hatred, we must remember that although God hates evil and evildoers, he still sent Jesus Christ to this world to reconcile us back to Him. “For God demonstrated his love to us, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8) Are we capable of that kind of righteous hatred while loving ultimately?

Fearful Self-Reflection

The Psalmist is not just some self-righteous snob. He is not arrogant for he recognises that he could also succumb to adopting an evil mindset or acting against God and his creation. Thus, he calls out to God and says, (my words); Lord God, I could fall prey to that too. I pray that you, God, will search my heart and if I have any hint of evil in me, lead me away from it, lead me to the way everlasting.

The Psalmist had a realistic expectation of what his body and mind can do. He knows that all have fallen short of the Glory of God. He knows he needs help from God lest he too become a godless hater.

All scripture is written for our benefit. Our takeaway today is that we, like God, should hate sin, love righteousness, and love the God who loves us.

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I Can’t Even Count That High!

“How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand – when I awake, I am still with you.” Psalm 139: 17-18

Scientists have no concise number of thoughts a person thinks about in a day. Some will say we think about 12,000 thoughts, most of them useless. Other researchers estimate we think up to 80,000 thoughts per day, again, much of that useless thinking too. But even if we go for the lowest number, thousands of thoughts a day is a good number. Depending on what we are thinking, that is. We can have negative or positive thoughts, and then there are precious thoughts.

Negative Thoughts

We all have negative thoughts from time to time. “I didn’t study hard enough, I’m going to fail this exam,” you might say before walking into the examination room. Or “She doesn’t really like me, she just pretends. I’m not her type.” Negative thoughts.

Sometimes these negative thoughts overwhelm us. They come from all around us. For example, when a loved one, be it a parent or spouse condemns us, puts us down or even abuses us, we start seeing ourselves that way. If we are called stupid, then stupid we become! At least in our minds. Maybe what that person said is true? We start to maximise the negative and minimise the positive. Even if we once thought we had wonderful attributes, they now are subdued, pushed underground.

If we are a child or woman subjected to violence, we develop negative thoughts. Sometimes though, life can be good, but our negative thoughts come from within. And they don’t stop. They become like a run-on sentence, a replay that keeps repeating in our mind until the rut is entrenched in our mind. What happened once or twice now happens repeatedly in our minds. Negative thoughts. They don’t go away. Our thoughts become shrouds over reality.

Positive Thoughts

Positive thoughts can belong to the optimist, and the optimistic mind looks for happiness, health, and positive results in every situation. This optimistic person may have become so because of positive reinforcements in his or her life. Perhaps, there was an encouraging person in their life.

Once in awhile, life is difficult, but for the most part, a person with positive thoughts can look at the future with a smile and rejoice about today and tomorrow. They have made a different groove in their brain, grooves of positive thoughts. It isn’t that they don’t have problems, they do, they just handle them differently. Furthermore, they embrace the challenges of life.

Precious Thoughts

Precious thoughts don’t come from us originally. They come from a Source outside of us, even outside our realm. If we look at the verse above, it says that God’s thoughts towards us are precious, and more than the sands. How many thoughts are those?

Scientists have done an estimate by calculating the number of grains of sand in a teaspoon and then multiplying it by all the beaches and deserts in the world. The rough estimate is seven quintillion, five hundred quadrillion grains. That is a number I cannot even comprehend. I might have been able to handle 80,000 thoughts but in the quintillions. Forget it! I can’t even count that high!

That is how many precious thoughts your Creator thinks about you. Whether you are a man or woman, boy or girl, you are treasured in his sight. So much so that he thinks about you all the time. Whether you are sleeping or awake, God is with you, watching over you, calling you his cherished child. That is how much you are worth to God Almighty.

Now if the God of the universe thinks about you that much, how does that help you move from negative thoughts to positive thoughts? Maybe what man has said about you is wrong? Could you be precious and worthy of love? Maybe you are a wonderful person after all? After all, God thinks precious thoughts about you.

Moving from Negative to Positive Thoughts

If we know the precious thoughts, is it now possible to move from negative thoughts to positive thoughts? It might be worth the try. You see, God says, we love because he first loved us. So maybe we can’t really love ourselves until we know that God loves us. Is that possible?

God isn’t like man. His love isn’t dependent on what others think of you, or what you think of yourself. He doesn’t ask that we be perfect and flawless when we come to him. He takes us just as we are. Why? Because he looks at our potential. He looks at how he formed us, not at what we have become or what we think of ourselves.

If you are abused and broken, come to him, and let him put his healing hand upon you and heal you. Let him love you so you can love yourself. If you have sinned and lived a miserable life, he can cleanse you and make you whole. After all, that is why Jesus came to earth, to reconcile us back to God. No matter what condition you are in, God’s thoughts towards you are precious. No matter what you think of yourself, negative or positive, God has precious thoughts towards you, quintillions of them.

If we know the love of God, can we learn to love ourselves? Can we look at the future with a smile when he turns ashes into beauty? You are loved and wanted by the Almighty, the One who has precious thoughts towards you.

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Are We Created by Design or by Accident?

You saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came into being. Psalm 139: 16

Our environment tells us we are just here. Parental abandonment tells us that we are unwanted. Some societies value sons over daughters. Perhaps we are made to believe that we are unwanted and unloved. Scientists say we live and die without purpose, maybe we are just a mass of cells and chemistry, nothing more. We exist but without love, without purpose and without happiness. In fact, life is miserable. Gloom fills our days and we are walking in the valley of darkness. We believe we are unloved, unwanted and without hope. Death may even be sweeter, so suicidal thoughts creep into our lives.

But what if all the above is a lie to rob you of your joy and hope of a fulfilled purpose in life?

There Wasn’t an Accident

Over the years you heard the whispers when people thought you weren’t listening. Or perhaps you have been told directly that you were an afterthought, or an unwanted child. Perhaps due to a violent twist of events, your mother was raped, and you were born nine months later. Or due to parental abandonment, you feel your life is a failure, you are to blame for your parent’s marriage problems. Or perhaps your parents are so consumed in their lives, you feel emotionally abandoned. You feel unloved and unwanted. Depression digs deep you wish you hadn’t been born.

But may I tell you another story?

Imagine an architect who designs a home. Mathematics and straight lines and curves, exact measurements are penned to paper so when it comes time to build, what has been conceptualised can be brought into existence at the construction site. A beautiful edifice evolves. I had the privilege to tour architect Frank Lloyd Wright’s Fallingwater House in Pennsylvania. It is indeed a wonderous structure above a waterfall. Just to hear the water cascading downward is reason to live there.

But he didn’t do it without thought. There was a plan, a blueprint and then the construction material was brought to the site. Then the rubble of bricks, wood and stone took shape as the blueprint was followed and a work of art stood where once was barren ground. The structure was not an accident. It was constructed due to intent, for a purpose.

You Were Perfectly Made

God is your architect. He visualised you before you were even conceived. He saw your incomplete substance in his eyes and then he fashioned you in his mind. God perhaps didn’t use pen and paper for his blueprint, but he wrote it on his heart. His knowledge of us is intentional. His knowledge of us comes from sight, not hearsay. We are not an accident. We were planned and creatively designed by the Almighty. You were born just the way He wanted you to be born, the exact shape and size and with purpose. And in everything he does, love defines his actions and his finished masterpiece.

“That’s hard to believe,” you may say to me. “Look at me, I’m too fat or too skinny. I was born blind, without limbs, look at me, I’m a misfit,” you may yell at me.

You have looked in the mirror. Who can know you better than yourself? You have seen the imperfections. You cringe at what you see, and you believe the world joins the chorus. In fact, they are the ones that started it with their taunts and bullying. Our beauty culture demands perfection and we are not perfect. We try diets, exercise, cosmetics but we see the same body every time we look in the mirror. We become dejected and depressed. “If only I looked like a movie celebrity, I would look beautiful,” we lament.

What the world calls imperfect, God calls beautiful. His design, his blueprint comes with beauty and purpose. How can a man born without limbs have beauty? Yet when you hear Nick Vujucic’s story, it is there.

God looks at the heart of a man or woman, he is most interested in our inner being. Yes, he is concerned about our body too, but he has the whole picture of what we are all about, inside and out. He sees where people can’t see. This should bring comfort that we are whole beings who matter to him. He has no limitations to his love.

You Were Born for a Purpose

We were not born just to exist. While it is true that we live to die, we do not live a purposeless life just drifting through until we are buried never to be resurrected. Science may teach us so, but science doesn’t have all the answers. God does.

All of our days have been ordained. Ordained has two meanings: One is that we are appointed, invested, and/or anointed. All these words imply purpose or position behind the one who does it. For example, if we are appointed to a position, it is expected that we carry out certain functions, have a specific role. Human resources call it a job description. In the second instance, ordained means to decree, to order or command. For example, a nation may decree that certain laws must be followed. People are ordered to follow the laws of the land. Again, we see purpose for no law is given without a positive purpose to it.

And so, all our days have been ordered, or appointed. Paul says in Ephesians 2:8, “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Your work was cut out for you even before you were born, while it was only visualised in God’s mind.

“But what must I do,” you cry. “I don’t know my purpose in life. What is wanted of me? I don’t have direction.”

Jesus can answer those questions. When you “abide in Christ”, you will find joy, hope, self-worth, and purpose. God loves you and wants you.

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Featured Character of the Month: Guddi from Shrouds Over Eden

This month we are featuring Guddi, whose story appears in Shrouds Over Eden, a book for the broken hearted. Guddi has had to make some difficult decisions in her life. Here she is to share with us more about who she is.

Again, with me, is Alizeh Rasheed who has graciously agreed to act as our interpreter for this interview. And just for the record, the picture you will see in print is a younger Guddi as she says she no longer is as beautiful as she once was. I think she still has a striking personality. She has certainly aged gracefully. Okay, so let’s hear from Guddi.


Tell us a little about yourself. How old are you and where do you live? Do you own your own home, or do you rent?


I am now close to 50 years old. I live in a village, District Jalandhar. I live with my husband and sister who is also my husband’s wife and three children, two sons and a daughter. The children are my sisters, I am not able to have children.


It isn’t common for people in your country to have more than one wife. Could you please share why your husband is married to your sister?


You’re right, it isn’t common. But in cases where a wife is childless and there is no one to inherit the property, then it is permissible for the husband to take a second wife. My husband was afraid that his relatives would steal the land from him if he didn’t have a son. So I suggested that he marry my younger sister. She is the one who has the children. But because I am the first wife, the children call me Mama.


Who is the most important person in your life? Why?


Those two boys that call me Mama. They are very important because it is they that will look after us in our old age.


What is your greatest fear?


That someday my husband and sister will no longer give me full respect as the first wife and I will lose our sons.


How do you measure success? Would it be money, career, husband/wife, children, happiness, etc.?


My husband has much land, he is a big farmer here and very successful. So, having good crops, land and sons to look after us in our old age is success for me.


What is your idea of perfect happiness?


Perfect happiness would have been able to carry my own biological son. But fate was not with me. We tried everything to have a child. I visited our holiest temple, the Harmandir Sahib and I even went to Goindwal Sahib. It is a gurdwara that has 84 steps in it. On each step you recite Japji Sahib, that’s the divine word revealed to Guru Nanak. If you do all 84 steps your sins are forgiven, and you don’t have to go through so many reincarnations. But you can also pray for personal things, so I asked Satguru to give me a son. Even though I endured and did all 84 steps, I didn’t get a son. That’s when I decided my husband should marry my sister.


Do you work outside the home? If so, what is your occupation?


My sister is a teacher, but I stay home and look after the household and children.


What did you eat for breakfast? Did you make it yourself? Do you wash your own dishes or do you have a maid to do those things for you?


I had a paratha with yogurt and achar this morning for breakfast. For those that don’t know what that is, it’s a stuffed flat bread fried in a pan along with the achar which is a kind of spicy pickle. I make the meals, so I made breakfast for everyone. Also, we have a girl that comes in and washes dishes and cleans the floors and does the laundry.


If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?


I wish Satguru would take away my barrenness. To be barren is to be cursed by God which means looked down upon in the village. Even though my sister’s boys call me Mama, when I walk in the village, I still feel that people look at me and gossip about me because I can’t have children.


Sonu talks about you in the book Shrouds Over Eden. Where did you meet her?


What an angel! She came to our village a few years back. She shared many things about this one she had met, called Lamb and how his compassion strengthened her and gave her courage. She shared about how he valued women. I wish I knew Lamb the way she does because then I would have asked him for a son. If I had a son, then I wouldn’t have asked my sister to marry my husband.


Are you not happy?


I am not complaining but sometimes I get depressed. It is not easy being one of two wives, even if I am the first wife.


Well we have run out of time and we don’t have time for another question, except for this last one. It is a fun question. What is your favourite colour?


I like bright colours, bright blues and greens.

Thank you Guddi for taking time out of your day to be interviewed. I’m sure it wasn’t easy sharing your story to a large audience. You did an excellent job; I feel I know you so much more. For our readers who want to read Guddi’s story, you can purchase Shrouds Over Eden at various outlets worldwide.

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There Are No Mistakes! All Are Wanted

My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depth of the earth. Psalm 139: 15

When our friends’ first child was born, everyone knew about it. A baby boy had been born to the household! Joy and happiness abounded; sweets were distributed to relatives and friends far and wide. The news was out! A baby boy was born!

But it was a different story for the next child. We knew the wife was pregnant, but the due date came and went, and no birth announcement was made. We questioned when the due date was. Maybe she didn’t have it yet? Finally, we called to find out. Yes, a child had been born, but this time it was a girl. There was no rejoicing, no sweets distributed. Her birth was covered in shrouds of secrecy.

Perhaps you have seen this happen in your neighbourhood. Perhaps it has happened to you. You were that unwanted girl child. Or maybe you were just unwanted. You were an ‘afterthought’. Or you are the result of an unplanned pregnancy. Your parents hadn’t wanted any more children, or you were an ‘accident’. Maybe you have been abused because of who you are.

You feel unwanted and unloved. Maybe you curse the day you were born. Or you live your life in rebellion striking out violently at injustice served to you. Maybe you weep, hurt by thoughts of being an unwanted child.

Your Are No Accident

But you are no accident, you are wanted, and your birth should have been a celebration. The Psalmist says that you were not hidden from the Creator of the universe. As your Creator, he wove you together. Weaving takes planning, design, careful attention to detail. The ancient art of carpet weaving requires the artisan to dye the woolen yarn in rich colours, then painstakingly weave the carpet, a process that can take months. Some carpets are not dyed, rather the natural colours are made from different coloured wool, depending on the breed of sheep. These carpets take years to collect enough wool to make a small carpet. Weaving a carpet is no simple matter, it is carefully planned and designed, each design unique to a family or clan.

My husband and I have the luxury of visiting a carpet shop where antique and beautiful carpets are displayed and sold. We sit in wonderment at each unique and carefully designed masterpiece. And along with the display, the shopkeeper shares how each carpet is made, which tribe made which carpet and whether they used natural dyes or not. Each kind of carpet comes with its own creation story. And each carpet has its purpose.

You Have Purpose

Baloch carpets tell the story of wars and rivalry. Some carpets are designed to see if a man and women, if they marry will make a compatible couple. The man is given a piece of canvas as is the girl. Both weave a design into the canvas. At the end, the two pieces are sewn together and if the designs match, then the couple will have a good marriage. I don’t know what happens if each piece is quite different. That might be a different story.

Like the carpet, there is a purpose to your life.

Please consider the One who wove you together in your mother’s womb, that secret hiding place where you were designed and beautifully wrought. You are a creation story. Unique and beautiful in our own right. You were planned by the creator. You are both wanted and loved. He loves you and wants you and he created you with purpose.

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Handcrafted or Production Line Made: Which One Are You?

For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139: 13-14

Everyday thousands of girls are born, unwanted. In some countries like India and Pakistan, boys are the preferred gender. A man might divorce his wife because she bore him a son. Girls receive less or no education because of gender discrimination. The list of abuses against women is exhaustive. Many girls grow up wishing they were born boys for they know they would fare better as males. And it isn’t just in Asia or Africa, gender discrimination against females is a worldwide problem.

Many young people, men and women, grow up hating themselves and their bodies because they either feel unwanted or they do not like who they are. They look in the mirror and see only an ugly face staring back at them. Their image is often shaped by an ill-placed insult or demeaning statement by a friend or relative. Perhaps an aunt many years ago said to her chubby-cheeked niece, “My, aren’t you a chubby one!” Although the aunt had intended no harm, the little girl begins to think there is something wrong with her body. She is too fat. This is especially possible in a world that emphasises thinness. Women are supposed to be shaped a certain way, thinly, that is. Soon, the little girl is eating less and develops anorexia. This may seem extreme, but all very possible.

Or maybe you live in a country where there is a strong “beauty culture”. You compare your body and facial feature to the latest Bollywood or Hollywood beauty or fashion model. You fall short. Low self-worth sets in. You wish you had not been born, or if at least, if you could have been born in a different body, you are sure life would be better. You begin to berate yourself.

Now I am going to take you on a bit of a journey; to a grandmother knitting a sweater for her grandchild. Let’s say it’s her granddaughter. She either uses a pattern, chooses the colour carefully, perhaps in a lovely pastel pink because her little granddaughter loves pink. It’s her favourite colour. Or maybe the grandmother is an accomplished craftswoman and makes her own design, a detailed artwork of cables, purls, and knits. She sits in a comfortable chair and love is wrought with every click of the needles, ever stitch knit, love for her granddaughter. The creation is finally complete, and the grandmother wraps the sweater up and gifts it to her granddaughter. A beautiful creation is born swathed in love.

Let’s now look at how God’s design (that is you) happens. The Psalmist says, he was knit together in his mother’s womb. Take now the imagery above of the grandmother and replace it with God. That is how God makes you. He lovingly knits you together in your mother’s womb. Love and beauty poured into one creation. You.

Then the Psalmist goes on to say that he is fearfully and wonderfully made, God’s works are wonderful. You are wonderfully created by the Creator. And the love that was poured into designing you! Unfathomable!

If you feel unloved, unwanted, imperfect, if you despair at how you look, what your gender is, if you feel unworthy of love and attention, look to your Creator. Look to the love he poured into you. Look at his design. You might not be a fashion model, but you are beautiful, you are wonderful.

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Light Dispels Darkness by Helen Khan

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night, even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day. Psalm 139: 11 – 12

Have you ever awakened in the middle of the night and it’s pitch-black outside; neither a streetlight, nor a star penetrates the darkness? It is dark, absolutely, completely, totally dark. You can’t see a thing. You grope for your torch (flashlight), turn it on and the beams penetrate the darkness, dispelling the darkness.

Life is sometimes like that. Sometimes the future seems dark and ominous. Sometimes our past has been dark, violent, oppressive. The future doesn’t paint a better picture. We fall into despair, anxiety and depression. Life is one downward spiral. From our vantage point, gloom overwhelms, the valley is dark and there is no light in sight.

That’s our vantage point but the above-captioned verses tell us that there is One who sees differently. The darkness we see is light to God. He peers through the darkest night with eyes that see as if it were day. Does that comfort you to know that God sees through the darkness into our lives? Does it comfort you that you are not alone, even in your darkest hour? God is there to shed light and dispel your darkness.

Jesus said he is “the light of the world”. He is the torch, the flashlight shedding light into darkness. Without Jesus, darkness lives on. But when we turn to Jesus, “the light of the world”, the dark part of our heart, the darkness in our life, is dispelled. John Piper wrote, “The light of Christ is the brightness of God shining on the retina of the human soul.”

Our maybe you are afraid of the dark. Maybe you live in a danger zone where evil comes out at night. Robberies, murders and other crimes are usually done in the shrouds of darkness. Thieves do not want to be seen. If you live in a high-crime area, just walking down the street might bring fear.

God doesn’t promise us that we will never have troubles. And we do have to take safety precautions. He doesn’t’ want us to act foolishly. But we can have the assurance that God sees that intruder lurking in the dark. He sees through the body into the darkness of man’s heart. Does knowing that God has his watchful eye on you, even in the dark give you comfort? Does knowing that nothing is too dark for God to make light comfort you?

I hope it does.

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A Hand in the Dark by Helen Khan

If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. Psalm 139: 9-10

Today, I am going to talk about the right hand. Hopefully no left-handed people take offence!

We talk about a right-hand man. What does that mean? According to the Cambridge Dictionary, it means someone who helps and supports you the most. The use of righthandedness is not limited to the English-speaking world. Early civilizations, including Mesopotamians, Greeks and Romans have exalted the right hand. The right hand of their gods signified healing and benevolence. A strong right-handed culture developed in the Middle East. The person who stands at the right side of an authoritative figure holds the same power and authority as the one in authority. In this honorary position, he/she acts as a viceroy. In present day nations, strongly influenced by Middle Eastern culture, the right hand is used for eating, for beckoning a person to come closer, to say thank you and to provide a blessing.

In the Bible, the right hand of God signifies his omnipotence. His strength is indicated when “the right hand of God overcame Israel’s enemies (Ex. 15:6).

In our verses mentioned above, we see the Psalmist enjoying glorious morning light only to plunge down into darkness. From joy to doldrums. From life to death. From mountain heights to the lowest valley. Have you ever been there? I have. I suspect many have been there too.

But then David gives us hope, a helping hand. God’s hand will lead us, and not just any hand, but his right hand. That all-powerful hand of God will uphold you. Wow! When we feel like there is no one there, no one who can lead us up and out, God is there. And what a God! His right hand will hold us up. David discovered that God could deliver him and save him from the valley, perhaps even the valley of death. And he can do it again, today, for you and me.

Jesus sits at the right hand of God. He is now “seated at the right hand of the power of God”. (Luke 22:69). Jesus is the exact representation of God Almighty. He is the one that rebuked the wind and the sea became calm. He stopped the storm. You can call out today to Jesus and he will calm your storms, lift you up from the darkest valley of despair or death. He holds the right hand of power from the Almighty.

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The Valley of Darkness by Helen Khan

If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! Psalm 139: 8

For some, darkness is an everyday occurrence. We wrestle with demons at night; the wounds and pains that run replay through our mind. Morning dawns with no desire to get up and enjoy a day ahead of us. There is no joy ahead, only the dark gloom of an unwanted day.

You finally climb out of bed because of obligation or duty, but not because of joy. Life goes on, in the same rut. Maybe the children must be fed, work has to be done. Trudge on, trudge on. Let’s make it through the day, even if all you want to do is sit and wish the day gone.

This is not something you can easily snap out of; it’s easier said than done. Depression doesn’t work that way. You feel that there is no one who understands or can help. You are alone in the journey and you prefer alone; as much as your heart cries for someone to love you, you also push others away. This is your battle. Besides, who wants to be with miserable old you anyway?

You cry for help, inside, but laugh on the outside. You pretend life is just fine when it couldn’t be worse. The valley is dark and deep, and heaven is no where in sight. You feel depressed and alone.

But you are not alone. The one who loves you most, who thinks about you continually. He sees all your tears and puts them in his bottle of remembrance, He is the one who knows the number of hairs on your head and sees you and is even with you in your valley of darkness.

In the verse above, it says “if I make my bed in Sheol, he is there with me”. What is Sheol? Sheol is the place of the dead, dark place where spirits of the deceased go. Does it sound a bit like where you are right now?

There, in the depth of darkness, God is with you. Where misery is, so is light, so is love, so is comfort. He is waiting to lift you up, hold your hand and take you to heights unknown. If you call out to him, he hears you. If you reach out your hand, know that he is there, even if you don’t feel it right away.

It might take time to know he is there. That is okay. There is no rush, take your time. Think about what the verse is trying to tell you. If the verse brings you any comfort, cling to it. Read it over and over until it becomes a truth that encourages you and lifts you up. Someday the light will shine, and you will ascend to heights above the valley, maybe even there may be days on a mountain top. Everyone has spells of depression, and you might have a fallback time, but don’t despair; God is with you, even “if you make your bed in Sheol, he is there with you”. Take his hand and he will help you climb up the valley banks again.

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