Though Hell I Wait

Do you ever wonder if you are saved? Bought by the sacrificed blood of Jesus Christ on the cross of Calvary? And that the same Spirit that rose Jesus from the grave will raise you as well?

I wonder this a lot.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 tells us that God set eternity in the human heart. Sometimes I wish He didn’t. Sometimes I wish that I was left naïve to all the godliness, all the holiness, to all the eternal blessings that await those who are called and predestined (Romans 8:30).

While reading the gospel of John (John 8 last night), I think, “Man. Jesus makes it seem so easy to follow him. He wants us all to come believe and obey.”

To The Preachers

I wonder when God called on Paul to be an apostle, he would cause such heart ache. If when God calls on men and women of our day to preach that they would cause such heart ache. Or if God’s going to give them a talking to at the pearly gates.

We now have preachers laying out riddles unto salvation. I wonder if it is inappropriate to quote what Paul said about orderly worship that “God is not a God of disorder” (1 Cor. 14:33).

We also lay the “Once Saved, Always Saved” mantra. Not to bring up the teaching of losing one’s salvation, but the concept of “Once”. Like all at once you will be saved. Disregarding all of the scripture that tells us to seek.

“Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you.” (Matt. 6:33)

The same Apostle Paul tells us that we a predestined (Romans 8:30) also tells us, “How can people believe if not told?” (Romans 10:14-15).

The Highway To Hell

Why do some preachers make me feel like I’m on this highway to Hell and there is only one off ramp? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not implying that there is any other way unto salvation than Jesus Christ. What I’m saying is that either you believe the first time you hear the gospel or you just stay on that highway, there’s no way to be saved.

Testimony Time:

I learned of Jesus Christ when I was 5 years old. I learned, I went to church, I played on the worship team, but I was still addicted to trash on the internet and other things I won’t even share.

It was in writing, which required serious study of the Word of God (not a puffy 30 minute Sunday message), that I saw the holiness of God. I saw my sins as utter perversions that ruined God’s design. Every political argument, every school shooting, every natural disaster, it’s because of me.

What ever will bring order back to this chaos? God reclaiming the throne will bring back order.

I learned what God called of me:

  • I laid my sex life under the authority of God.
  • I laid my anger under the authority of God.
  • I laid my lust under the authority of God.
  • I laid my greed and money hunger under the authority of God.

Will I ever be welcomed into this new order of peace? Not unless you raised your hand, said the prayer, or walked the aisle at church. If you missed that chance, then you’re obviously trying to do it of your own strength and good deeds, and there is nothing for you.

You missed your exit. I should say, I missed the exit.

Sexually Immoral or Godless Like Esau

See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many. See that no one is sexually immoral, or is godless like Esau, who for a single meal sold his inheritance rights as the oldest son. Afterward, as you know, when he wanted to inherit this blessing, he was rejected. Even though he sought the blessing with tears, he could not change what he had done. (Hebrews 12:15-17)

I wrestled with this verse and many others that also claim that my sins have made me completely un-save-able (Hebrews 6:4-6). Esau knew what he was giving up for that meal from his brother, Jacob (Gen. 25:29-34). Did I not know that my sins were against God? Do we not all know?

(Note: I believe that Esau wept at the time he lost the blessing implying that though we may weep at the Judgment Seat (2 Cor. 5:10) after our death, we still have time to repent and ask for forgiveness while we live.)

Though Hell I Wait

Though Hell I wait, my prayer most nights are to sit in the presence of God. To sit as a child sits to listen to his father. The place of rest and refuge. To have God explain things to me, not in selected Bible passages, riddles and confusion.

Though Hell I wait, I will share of the goodness of God. I will share of God’s love and grace and mercy. I will share of God’s holiness and order.

Though Hell I wait, I will dream and fantasize of seeing all of what God’s hands have done. I will consider what my eyes would see if given the opportunity.

Though my heart longs for the days of peace under God’s rule, I fear that it is to Hell I will go. Because I missed my exit.


(Note: If you are preaching a lawless gospel, you are preaching a godless gospel. And if you are preaching a graceless gospel, you are preaching no gospel at all (John 14) )

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